Then Sings My Soul – Stars, by Switchfoot

I’ve been very introspective lately, pulled in many directions and exceptionally drawn inside myself. As an extrovert, it’s very telling that I am longing for time alone. Every time an opportunity to spend time alone arises, something comes up that kaboshes my plans. This song is a nice reminder of our place in this great big glorious universe that God created. Whether we’re alone or just wishing we were alone, we don’t need to feel lonely. In the grand scheme of things, we are called to be our best, as God desires us to be.

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Stars, by Switchfoot

Maybe I’ve been the problem
Maybe I’m the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I’ve been thinking maybe I’ve been partly cloudy
Maybe I’m the chance of rain
And maybe I’m overcast
And maybe all my luck’s washed down the drain

I’ve been thinking ’bout everyone,
Everyone you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I’ve been thinking ’bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home

I’ve been thinking about everyone
Everyone you look so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself.
Yeah!

Everyone, Everyone feels so lonely
Everyone, yeah everyone feels so empty
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I feel like myself
When I look at the stars
The stars, I see someone…

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Café Chat August 14th

Today’s topic: Operating outside of your “spiritual comfort zone.”

As I thought about this topic, it occurred to me that each individual’s “walk of faith” is the progressive result of continually stepping out of their spiritual comfort zone. If we stay in our comfort zone, we are stagnant, unchanging, not growing as Christians and probably not fulfilling our calls or our purpose. God has a purpose for each of us and we can’t fulfill it if we’re hiding from our destiny.

This blog was, at one time, a place where I operated outside of my comfort zone, but that is no longer true. I am very comfortable talking about my faith here. Twitter (I’m aka “yougottawonder“) is often a place where I step out in faith – posting status updates based on scripture or based on my faith. But, alas, nothing dire ever happens as a result so it’s becoming more and more comfortable to be open there, too.

Now I’m pushing new boundaries, and I’ve been flirting with ways and means to continue to grow and challenge myself – stepping outside of my comfort zone. A biggy has been the video blogs. Last week I took another step, telling an OT bible story from my heart.

I believe that if we’re comfortable, we’re not serving Him. It’s when we grow uncomfortable that our faith is most likely to be tested and rewarded.

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Port Aransas fishing


We arrived at Woody’s just as dawn was breaking. Hubby’s walking ahead of me, just about to turn around and tell me to hurry up! Actually, he gave me the same look he gives me when we go grocery shoppingn together. No words required. Our guide is one of the men standing on the dock, BS’ing with his compadres about the big fish that were just waiting for the mainlanders.

The excursion was a 6 hour adventure on a boat with no amenities. By “amenities” I mean “place to go potty” so we were very cautious with our water consumption. There was very little fishing if by “fishing” we mean “bringing fish onto the boat and putting them away for safekeeping”. We threw back about 4 Red fish because they were too small. Another misnomer about the fishing trip – I never touched a single piece of bait and I never cast once, even though I know how. Apparently the goal of the guide is for you to catch your limit so he can hustle you back to the pier. Unfortunately for him, the fish weren’t biting.


At the end of the day we had caught 1 Red fish that was big enough to keep and 3 Mango snappers. We had them for dinner last night with a tortilla chip breading and a mango-tequila dressing. Yum!

That’s the man I married 24 years ago. He wasn’t much of a chef back then, but he was a worthwhile investment. He, my friends, is a keeper.

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Sunday’s Study: Judges 11 – The Story of Jephthah

Today’s study is a “redo” of last week’s story, only this is a free-form telling of the tale. Watching myself on video is a good exercise. In the future, I will try to reduce the number of “and’s,” “so’s,” “basically’s,” etc. when I’m retelling these stories.

I swear, the Old Testament is better than anything on television. I want to do these stories justice.

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About this blog

Maybe every blogger comes to a time when they feel compelled to explain why they blog. Here’s my story:

“A Mother’s Angst” began (in September ’08) as a means to share the things I’ve learned about parenting. I’m the first to admit – most of what I’ve learned, I’ve learned through mistakes I’ve made. Occasionally (praise God) I’m able to share something that works well for us without identifying a painful path we took to get to the revelation. This post from March might be the best summary of my evolution as a parent, my transition from cool parent of young ‘uns to uptight parent of teens to a reasonably moderate parent of one teen. The points that I make in my posts and the stories I tell should not be considered a reflection of who I’ve always been (I’m not that stagnant) or even who I am today (I often call on history to make a point). I don’t spend a lot of time bragging about my children, not because they’re not praiseworthy, but because those stories rarely yield a lesson.

If instead of writing about parenting, I chose to write about quitting smoking, naming the blog “A Smoker’s Angst,” telling stories of failed efforts and the ultimate success story, occasionally highlighting the joys of life as an ex-smoker, I would not expect you to assume that I smoked my entire life (started when I was ~15) or that I still smoke (quit over 5 years ago). But you might. You might judge me a smoker, that’s the risk I’d run by talking about smoking. I probably wouldn’t spend a lot of time elaborating on the joys of not smoking. I can much more readily talk about cigarette burns on leather car seats, losing a burning cherry while driving down the interstate with an open window, overflowing nasty ashtrays, cigarette breath, stinky clothes, etc. Giving me advice on how to quit smoking might be interesting, but not necessarily relevant (unless you wanted to host a post about your personal experience). You see, I’m already past those days. But given the opportunity I will gladly talk about quitting (even though I’ve already quit).

Although this blog began as a place for me to wail and moan on occasion, to confess some tales that might be less than flattering, to share in my experiences so that others might learn, it’s evolved into a place where I worship and glorify God. I express here what God moves me to express (exegesis). Where you see His light shine, that’s where I’ve successfully gotten out of the way of His message. Where you don’t, that’s where I’ve gotten in the way and muddied His word.

The banner has also evolved . Initially it was a plain blue wrapper. Then the weeping eye. Now the eye has grown smaller and the message from Jeremiah 31 has been added. Another change is coming and the weeping eye may disappear for good. These changes reflect my evolution, this blog’s evolution, and maybe the changing interest of those who stop by. I’ve learned not to question, but to obey and respond accordingly.

Now, if you’ll bear with me…I’ll soon be posting a revised version of Judges 11, the story of Jephthah. I’m evolving my skills as a v-blogger. Your feedback is welcome.

Peace,

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Happy Anniversary, Baby!

Yesterday my darling husband & I celebrated our 24th anniversary. We went to dinner (TGIF’s) and a movie. The movie (A Perfect Getaway) was not great but it provided a great opportunity for 2 hours of hand-holding.

When we got home, there was a note from our 15 year old taped on the door that asked us to not turn on any lights. Hmmmm.

Throughout the house he had placed several notes in places we were not likely to miss; each note illuminated by flashlight. The notes all pointed us to the whiteboard in the kitchen. And in the kitchen? The biggest of the flashlights aiming its beam at the whiteboard, shown here. Isn’t he sweet?

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At the beach

I’m sitting in a meeting, listening to folks squawk about things that have no bearing on my immediate desires. I’m reminded of trips to the beach when occasionally, inevitably, someone feels compelled to feed the seagulls.

I’m doing my best to ignore the yammering but I’m feeling the beginnings of a headache just the same. I wish I could wade out into the wake to let the crashing waves drown out the squawking.

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Tips for Better Living

I had back-to-back “aha” moments coming from my efforts to read the Bible-in-a-Year.

First, right after I tweeted “Lord, be with me this day. Help me to do your will. Help me recognize the paths you open before me. Bless all who believe without seeing.” I read “The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?” (Proverbs 20:24) This really hit the nail on the head for me because I want to understand everything along the way! I am working on trusting God without seeing where my next step will take me.

Proverbs 20:24 was paired with 20:25 “Don’t trap yourself by making a rash promise to God and only later counting the cost.” (Proverbs 20:25) I had to go back and update Sunday’s post because this 2nd Proverb absolutely underscored the lesson from Judges!

Today’s tip for better living: Listen to what God is telling you. Don’t doubt that prayers can be conversational.

Amen!

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Port Aransas, the home of Boggie Boogie Boards and Sandels Sandles Sandals

The beach does not attract our most literate citizens, clearly. Considering the number of places that sell boogie boards and sandals, I was surprised by the number of places selling “boggie boards” and “sandels” and “sandles.”

Just in case you’re wondering, the patrons and staff at this particular shop had their swimsuits all the way on. Don’t get excited.

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Monday Blueprint Madness

These days I feel like I’m parked on a steep incline, investing energy just to stay in place.

Whoever planned this neighborhood didn’t seem to think about the connections between home and the world. Is everything on the same plane? Or at least close enough to transition between the two with grace?
This image gives a whole new meaning to the idea of sliding into your day.
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